Thursday, September 12, 2013

The god Pan

Rambling post:

I've been doing some thinking, which as you know can lead to all sorts of many feelings.  Makeup lovers post pictures of pan* with pride.  It's a symbol of achievement, of sustained love, endurance and discipline.  Aside from the Laura Mercier I posted the other day (and chucked), I really don't have pan to show off nor do I have anything even closely resembling pan except this guy:
Souce: theoi
I may need to become religious and start worshipping the Greek god Pan because having some sort of a hallucination maybe the only way I'm ever going to get pan or Pan.  This saddens me.

I can tell myself that it's practically impossible to hit pan on powdered products like eye shadows and if I don't reapply lipsticks regularly, it's not fair to expect to use up a lipstick.

But really, those are excuses.  I just have too much stuff.  All loved and well enjoyed but too much.  I actually get to everything and for most things I own each piece has a reason for being.  Well you got me, because I have very obscure and esoteric reasons for somethings but still... reasons.

Really generous and kind friends have allowed me to recently splurge on the hard to purchase items from Suqqu, Addiction & THREE.  And then there was a hasty purchase of a few long-coveted Chikuhodo brushes.  And yesterday there was a splurge on Tom Ford Orchid Haze.  (and, and, and)

Splurges are nice, aren't they?  To acquire something desired and to await their delivery are all lovely things.  Are these are not even here yet, but already I feel a bit of a overwhelmed ... some feeling.  Not guilt actually, but a deep unease.

So hey, I bought Orchid Haze yesterday as I mentioned.  Been lusting after this particular quad since I played with it several weeks ago.  Wore it here.  Super boring placement on the lids (dark to light gradient) paired with Tom Ford Black Orchid lipstick.  I hope to do a more detailed post soon with some varied eye placements.  My first impression is ... drool.  I should have bypassed the In the Pink trio for this quad all along.
TF Orchid Haze, TF liner in Espresso, TF Black Orchid
Suqqu Brow pen in Moss Green, Lancome Hypnose Drama WP mascara,
Suqqu EX-03 blush, Amore Pacific CC compact

Anyway, I'm going to go on an indefinite no-buy.  The no buy is a reaction to the recent Fall splurges.  I have some allowances however.
  • replace all recently finished foundations (2) with 1 more foundation and continue replenishing used up ones.
  • repurchase base products once finished (loose & pressed powder)
  • repurchase sunscreens
  • repurchase mascaras once all others are fnished.
  • repurchase my Tom Ford Espresso eye liner - down to a sad little stumpy
  • can repurchase skincare but only after finishing all backups and samples
  • no more lipsticks, no more eye shadows.
  • go and look for purges to make
  • be sad but gain some sanity
  • finish learning to ride a bike
  • read more books
I suppose we will have some unintended consequences on this blog.  While I have plenty to show for a bit and much interest still in beauty, I'm shutting up my wallet and figuratively cutting up my credit cards.  I ebb and flow.  Tis me, Belly.

I can't wait until I get to show you all some pan (in 10 years!  giggle)!  Of the makeup kind and not the goat god kind!

See you later, gators.

*pan is the bit of metal you hit if you use enough product to reveal the "pan" underneath

45 comments :

  1. We will have a pan party! Look forward to your reviews on your new autumn buys-

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    1. wanna go on a no buy with me? :P

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    2. In my heart I would love too! - but coming to the big apple-that would put a crimp in the plans- was thinking after that!

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    3. I hope I did not sound to glib!- I applaud your restraint and hope to get to where you are soon - I am watching our family hamster on her wheel- sometimes I do feel a bit like that! Here is a "cheers" to your no buy:)

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    4. Oh! Jo, you weren't glo AT ALL! Please forgive me for asking so glibly in the first place! :) I'm excited to spend my money on... I don't know, a new bike or something.

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    5. how about a tandem, a tandem with red ribbons on the handle bars and a really loud bell! mwah!

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  2. Completely understand your feelings, here! One can easily feel queasy with overabundance (and overspending), and sometimes ultimatums are in order. I start to feel this when I have multiple versions of the same e/s, palette, blush, etc., which is unfortunately the reality in my stash. Purging helps, but a no-buy is like a swift kick in the rear.
    Would love to see reviews of your "last hurrah" Autumn hauls, though ;)
    Also, any thoughts on how Orchid Haze compares to Guerlain Bois de Rose? You know...for the curious...

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    1. :) I wish I can compare to Bois de Rose, which I purged a while back. The texture is much better on the Tom, and the pale shade BdR was frosty and a bit patchy but the pale shade here is suuuuuuper smoothlike. SMOOOOVE.

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    2. Julia,
      At least as smooth as Enchanted. IMO the trios and OH have similar super nice formulas.

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  3. I can commisserate! I felt really virtuous for being on a low bordering on no buy throughout the summer, but I realized that I am completely unmoved by spring/summer collections. I am going a bit berserk with various Japanese fall/winter collections and want to build up my lipstick/foundation wardrobe, but I also hope to be done with buying for a long, long time.

    I've also been trying to hack my buying behaviour by simply not looking at HE brands available in the USA. Chasing after the HTF stuff from Asia means every purchase is scrutinized, and I can't go as crazy (have to stick to point makeup products) because there aren't many swatches available.

    I really want to do a purge sale, but man, I gotta start a blog for that? It feels wasteful. :P

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    1. I also think it's useful to try to understand our own consumption patterns. I love having shiny new toys to play with, but when I "haul"*, it usually happens when my anxiety levels are higher, which then fuels a mild obsessiveness--"I need this to complete my collection", "When I get this, my stash, no, my LIFE will be perfect" etc. I often have an "all or nothing" mentality (no buys interrupted by splurges followed by another austere period and so forth), and I think I just need to break from this way of thinking.

      *At the risk of sounding like an uppity bish, I've always been minorly troubled by the jargon used by MU aficionados online. "Hauls" and "purges" appear cyclical, so these words bring to mind a real and dangerous disorder. While jargon can be incredibly efficient and just handy to use, I wonder if using less loaded language would be more beneficial and healthier overall. People edit and update their clothing wardrobe all the time, spring-cleaning is a ritual, so why can't we apply this to our makeup stash? :)

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    2. Always appreciate your comments! :D I realized that even the act of focusing on Japanese cosmetics is causing its own problems (different high, a more high/crash/low cycle based on the chase, etc).

      I think I'm getting super clear on my consumption patterns and boy, is it not pretty. And I agree, the jargon I'm used to (like the examples you cite) seem more like a real disorder than insignificant and enjoyable hobby. I would like to get to be a true (and casual) hobbyist rather than consuming for my own mental peace (which of course never comes and when it does, it never stays).

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  4. I occasionally think that you have access to what's going on inside my head. It's quite spooky, really, because this isn't the first time I've come here and seen a well-written post that expresses what's been going on in my head. I was thinking of putting myself on a no-buy for a while, although that's really difficult for me to do in the Fall, when colours I love abound. On the other hand, I think that I could continue to blog indefinitely on these subjects just using products that I already have- and I am absolutely certain that you could! Think of all the fun you could have just coming up with different ideas and themes...

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    1. Your posts do as well (such as suicide prevention) which are more meaningful and beneficial in a truly important way than the little wibble wobble I've been doing here.

      I think it just goes to show, we're all very much more alike than not. I bet you there are blogs on any number of other subjects (like Japanese Netsuke collecting, or Airplane modeling, or Kitchen Gadgets) that have similar conversations. :) Consuming seems all the same no matter what the product is (although I make a case that our pretty makeup is extra special).

      I think we can both take our blogs the way they will. :) maybe I can hope this one will be more interesting in the future than in its current state.

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  5. I usually lurk on here but just wanted to say that I share the feelings of unease about overconsumption and going through the cycle of desire, the high of possession, then the material burden of ownership. I really enjoy your blog and your voice, however, and I hope you keep blogging! I don't read blogs always to see the newest shiny pretty things (although I am interested in these new Suqqu purchases you allude to) and I would love it if you would blog about revisiting old purchases, new ways to use things, and how you choose what you keep.

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    1. Christine,
      Thank you for delurking to post a comment. Your comment and voice is always appreciated here. Shinies are coming! I thank you for your suggestions. I will try some new things and we shall see where the blog goes (or dies)! :D

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  6. BELLEH! Show me the Suqqu Ex03 face palette! :O

    please :)

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    1. Of course, darling anonymous! :) But please also check out Swatcharama. She's already showed it as did Selphia.
      http://swatcharama.com/2013/08/suqqu-face-palette-ex-03/
      http://www.selphia.com/2013/09/suqqu-fall-2013.html
      These are gorgeous pictures!

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  7. I really can relate to the feeling of unease caused by purchasing many more beauty products that I can realistically use. It does become somewhat of a burden to then try and use it up so that it doesn't feel wasteful. I would love to see blogs on what you really love and enjoy and feel was worth the investment, and I don't care really care about every new collection that comes out every season.

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    1. thank you for this comment, Beth. And for relating to my unease. Ok, I'm glad you're not always trying to focus on each new collection. Generally I'm not either, it just all adds up! :)

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  8. I never concern myself about hitting pan because I toss products according to expiration dates. Mascara every three months, glosses and lipstick every year, etc. Since I purchase a lot of makeup, there is no way I am ever going to hit pan on something simply because I have so many things from which to choose. I love updating my makeup look and trying new products, but I never feel pressured to buy just because something catches my eye or some blogger is raving about it. I learned a long time ago how to enjoy going to the counter to play and have fun without whipping out my credit card.

    Shryh1 said that she didn't like the terms "haul" and "purge". Well, I don't like the term "lemming". It makes women sound like simple-minded creatures who blindly follow the blogger--right off the fiscal cliff! LOL When I first started reading beauty blogs, I bought several things simply because I got caught up in the hype. Fortunately, that phase didn't last long and I quickly came to my senses and started thinking and evaluating products for myself.

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    1. Hiya Eileen. I don't think hitting pan as an activity is all that important, it's more what it represents to me. It seems symbolic of moderate and considered consumption (which obviously I do NOT do!). Of course, it's only what I'm mulling over these days. I do love how you play at the counter! I must learn to get my jollies without the actual ownership of evrrrrything.

      Lemming is a terrible makeup term!!! I totally agree!

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  9. Hey Bellyhead!
    I'm going with Kate MacDonald here & say that you have an uncanny way of hiting the spot!
    I have to say that I've 'been there, done that' with the 'no-buy' on so many occassions but I haven't been able to kick it yet. I'm thinking that all this makeup passion is some kind of mid life crisis manifestation - in my case anyway. Men buy a cabriolet & sport a toupée?
    I have no doubt that when the time is right this craziness will pass & in the mean time I drown in all these must-haves!

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    1. :D omg! Yes, it totally could be a midlife crisis! YES! Lol. Maybe if I bought a fancy convertible I would feel better?

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  10. Ah.. Belly has hit the spot again!! Just yesterday, the Toddler and I went to the library and checked out the book "Yummy YUCKY!" by Leslie Patricelli (you probably were familiar w/ this book when you LOs were younger). Well, "Ice creams are yummy!" "Too much ice cream is YUCKY!" If I'm "teaching" my toddler this, how come I still don't get it?? I think all of us can relate to that "yucky" uneasy feeling after lots of splurging. Some of my strategy (does not mean it works for everyone but heck, I thought I'd share):

    1. Stay away from makeup counters and your fave SA. Dear Eileen above and I had a mini convo on another blog on how to "maintain relationship with fave SA when you are not buying products." I mean, you still need them sometimes, right? Replenishments and such.. but what if you are not buying? or plan not to buy? and their job is to sell?

    2. Have a tiny drawer for makeup. Forget about makeup organization! When you need to organize, you have too much, my friend! LOL

    3. I donate things I don't use. I don't sell/swap/return anymore. I think there's this.. cyclical mentality with swapping/selling, thinking I can recoup some of my "loss" and therefore justify more buying in the future. Donation is finite. And the other person probably appreciate the item more than I can imagine.

    4. Read other blogs besides beauty blogs. Read other magazines besides beauty magazines. Read more books (YES! your plan will work!), ride that bike, and share some advice for novice moms like me how to potty train an active toddler.

    Oops, toddler's up. Gotta go!! Hope to see you around!

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    1. to be very honest, we loved Everybody Poops. :) Maybe I should read Yummy YUCKY because I can learn a valuable lesson here. My youngest is learning about fables and morality tales in her class. I'm anxiously awaiting her to share her lessons with me on consumption.

      Since my nobuy allows me to replenish used up necessities, I hope I will not feel deprived. I think I will be ok.

      Your #2 point made me LOL like a lunatic. This is true. I used to have all my makeup held in one tray. It's so funny (and WOAH) what I have now. Omg, I have too much!

      and you are so point ON about the cyclical nature of recouping to buy to sell to recoup to buy some more... Maybe if there were zero monetary return on my initial purchase, I wouldn't be such an inconsidered spender.

      Speaking of potty training. My little kid got on the toilet one day and never turned back. My big one was really really hard to get out of a pullup. Boy, do I have poop stories to share!

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    2. Whoa, so there, you can share your secret of potty training children since seems like you've been on both sides LOL, IF that is t what you like to do (I know some don't like to blog about personal things and that's totally ok by me, whatevs..) Here's a link to Yummy YUCKY, sadly it is a very short, board book that teach nothing but to deter myself to eat too much

      http://www.amazon.com/Yummy-Yucky-Leslie-Patricelli-board/dp/0763619507/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1379105460&sr=8-1&keywords=yummy+yucky

      O.k I've put Everybody Poops in my library list to check out!

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    1. thank you, wonderful caise. I will NEED it!

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  12. Aaaah...I hear you loud and clear, Ms. Belly...and I wish you a very successful and fulfilling no buy!! I think it does all of us good to take a break now and then, and lean toward a different type of consumption like books and riding a bike!!

    I sometimes wish I could go back to the days when I was more than happy with my uber small collection of a few lipsticks, a few lip glosses, a few eyeshadows, 1 powder, 1 foundation, a couple of blushes and that was pretty much it. I was happy with what I had, and I don't know that I look much different with the makeup I own now??? Just more choices I guess ha ha :-) I think my stash is still quite manageable, though the goal is to keep it that way - hence the constant reorganizing and purging. Though I'm a bit ocd by nature and am constantly reorganizing or getting rid of something...I can't help it!!

    anyway...you can totally do this!!! xoxo <3

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    1. thank you, my Gummykins. I am hoping that this is a new way of life rather than a break (for me anyway). I love your ocd ways!

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  13. pan!!! PAN! I've never finished a makeup product. i mean maybe when i was 14 but i'm pretty sure i lost it or gave it up before i ever finished it. MAYBE i finished lip balms in my early 20s/ late teens. But nothing REAL. i can't wait for the day that i hit pan on some makeup thing and then that day i finish something will be even more epic!! SO yeah i know you can do this Belly!!! Anyway, I hope this no buy and using up of things goes well. :)

    ALL THE TOM FORD LOOKS AWESOME ON YOU! ok done shouting.

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    1. Thanks lovely Bunny! <3 I finished up a CHanel quad once...ten years ago. :) I can do it again! I'm going to need all your love and encouragement.

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  14. Yay for moar books (you can't expect me to cheer for less anything, but I'll always cheer for MOAR)!!
    Come find me on goodreads :D Adding books to one's to-read list I find scratches that acquisitive urge nicely though it's pretty damn addictive in its own way...

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    1. I just learned where there is this thing called the library where they let you read books for free?! WHat the hell is this? I just finally started to read IQ84. What took me so long. Also a 900+ page book to carry around during my daily commute is causing me to hunch over like Quasimodo.

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    2. I HAVE ONE!!! I'm trying to reduce screen time and go analog. Ugh, my back!

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    3. Totally right there with the more reading. Goodreads is awesome! And I've been feeling the same thing lately too. I don't know that I'm on a no buy--but I'm definitely trying to limit what I'm getting. Definitely being more choosy and particular. And I too, wish I had passed on In The Pink. Great texture, but doesn't hardly show up on me at all.

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  15. I second Kate's words - more books is always a YAY moment. And I need to purge too, so agree with your wise and witty words. x

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    1. Not wise at all. Just a very silly consumer lady. :D But YAY! More books for all!

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  16. Yay! So glad I have someone else to be on a ban with. :D I love love love your hauls, but I do love it when you do comparison posts with your current makeup, too. :) We can do it! I WILL see pan one of these days! :)

    All the love and encouragement to you. <3 :)

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    1. :) Hiiii, Carina! I appreciate alll the love and encouragement!! Pan for both of us.

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  17. Bikeriding FTW! I do understand your concern about having sooooo much stuff; I used to have boatloads! It didn't really bother me until I had to move - three times in three years - and it became such a burden; physical (ugh, makeup is heavy stuff!) and emotionally...not to mention financially! Who can justify separate storage space for makeup (ok, maybe professional makeupartists and such, but I'm not one of them)...anyway, I've managed to cut my stash by 75% since and it feels great! Some items have been donated, some swapped and some sold. I still have a lot of makeup; much more than a muggle would ever manage to use up in a lifetime, but that's OK. I'll report if/when I ever hit pan on anything; it has yet to happen with colour cosmetics. Best of luck on your biking/reading/panning adventures!

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  18. LOL i've said many times i'm going for a no-ban but what can i say...i'm hopeless when i see taupes or shadow palettes (hello shiseido).

    LOL @ bit of metal you hit if you use enough product!!!!

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